----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


It's holiday today. I'm doing nothing and it's
kinda bored. Maybe I'll do some stuff. Yeah
stuff. Stupid stuff I guess... (rolling my eyes)
My mom say we gonna go out.
But I don't feel like going out. What about going out
with "them"? Nah... don't think so. I'm feeling sooo
down right now. And I don't feel like meeting anyone.
I know that I've been avoiding to meet people.
Especially my old friends. But I can't help it.
I just don't feel like meeting them. With this kind of
mood.. it's best that I don't meet up with them for a
moment.. Or forever..
I'm not sure anymore. Things are slipping away from
me. And I can't do anything about them. I just can watch
them slip far away from me.
BUT no matter what.. Life still have to go on. With or
without them I've to make it through all of this. Hey, people
are growing and so am I (wink.. wink). Things are changing
and I've to change to in order to fit in.
What about my oldself? Hmmm good question. But she's lost,
dead maybe. Can't find her anymore. So I've to make do with
my 'newself' so I can survive. Right?
I still going with them to the carnival. Miss the school. Can't wait
to meet the teachers.

{And NAL I'm not mad at you. Sorry if I din't reply You're message
or whatever. I'm not myself this past few weeks. With all the exam
and stupid problems of mine.. I'm being mean to myself and
everyone else. Sorry... Miss Ya}