----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----

Finished school but still need to go to
ArtFriend to check out some stuff.
I'm a the library right now. Doing nothing
so I decided to update on something.
Wrote this poem last 2 night. Yeah!!!
At night. While laying on my bed in the dark
'cause my Alien sister had told my to put out the
light.
*Grind*


Waiting, hoping, praying

Giving up?
I will do that

Forgetting you is my
new mission

Crying for you
Never again

Missing you
I will, like crazy

Time
It will heal all of my pain

My broken heart
It can still be fix again

Goodbye
I will blow you kisses

My legs
They bring me to safety

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Just got back from school.
Feeling so damn tired. A bit sad.
Had a stupid dream last night.
Don't wanna talk about it.
Feeling sooo damn sick.
Can't get him of my mind.
Yeah, can u believe it.
My sick head still think of him.
Going to eat something now.
I'm so damn hungry.
Gonna kick their asses if they make noise
tonight.
Can't stand this.
Sick day with a sick girl like me.......

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Went to school last Tue to collect
the result. Can't stand that women
mouth.
All I wanna do now is to sit for the
examination and get over them
A.S.A.P.
How life sucks...
3 more days before the school start again.
How boring.
*Sigh*
I mean nothing is interesting. The kids
*Rolling my eyes*
The way the dress up.. is sooo.... Lame.
But some of them are pretty ok.
Maybe that's their style. WHATEVER..
I'm sooooo damn boring right now..
Shit.. I need to do something....
I can't stand this...
Damn!!

----<@My So-Called-Poem@>----


I know you truely love me
And I can feel your misery
This is my last night with you
How I wish it is not true

I wish I could spend more time with you
But I am sorry I couldn't make it through
I have never meant for this to happened
If only I have the power to prevent

I will always be there
Hoping you will not depair
We know that we will meet again
Some day walking together in the rain


(Wrote this long time ago. Can't even remember when
and I forgot to put the date there. Wrote this as soon as
I finished reading a book.)

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Watched the news?
*Bitting my nails*
Hope that he's okay.....

Going out with da gals tomorrow. Yeah, gals' day
out. Yeah gals... ONLY.. Cool!!!
Well it's actually on Saturday. Freez just told me
that...
*Sigh*
So, I'm gonna meet them on Sat. What should I do
until Sat. Sitting here at home, is driving me CRAZY!
Yeah CRAZY!!!

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


It's School holiday how!!!!!!!! Yahoooooooo!!!!!!!!
But..... I'm bored.....

Whever I'm online.... I'll think of him. How we talk...
How we being such an idiot. I miss him.
I really do. Maybe that was the last time I got to talk
to him.
Well not really talking but just said "Hi."
So why can't I just forget him?
He hurt me right? So why am I still missing him?
This is so pethatic.
So tell me how to forget him...

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


YAY!!!! It's school holiday. But doesn't sound so good
'cause I've project to do. Any way it's interesting though.
*Grin*
Gotta write an essay 'bout woman. They gave us 6 topic
and we've to choose 1. So I'm choosing "The woman that
I admire most and why"
*Sigh*
Well it's the only good topic. But I've nooooooo idea what
to write about. I mean, who.... Arghhhhh...

I've 2 weeks to do it all. Holiday?
*Rolling my eyes*
Yeah right.
By the way. The exam was 'kay. But I'm not sure whether
I'll get through it.
Gotta go now.... I'm soooooooooo damn hungry...
*Winks*

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----

"Boys"

For whatever reason,I feel like
I've been wanting you all my life
You don't understand
I'm so glad we're at the same place
At the same time, it's over now
I spotted you dancin'
You made all the girls stare
Those lips and your brown eyes (oooh)
And the sexy hairI should shake my thang
Make the world want you (giggle)
Tell your boys you'll be back
I wanna see what you can do (uh)

What would it take for you to just leave with me?
Not tryin to sound conceited but
me and you were meant to be (yeah)
You're a sexy guy, I'm a nice Girl
Let's turn this dance floor into our own little nasty world!

Boys!
Sometimes a girl just needs one (you know I need you)
Boys!
To love her and to hold (I just want you to touch me)
Boys!
And when a girl is with one (mmm, mmm)
Boys!
Then she's in control!

Took the boy off the dance floor
Screaming in his ear
Musta' said somethin bout me (what you say)
Cuz he's lookin over here
You lookin at me (giggle)
With a sexy attitude
But the way your boys movin it (uh)
It puts me in the moodOUW!

What would it take for you to just leave with me?
Not tryin to sound conceited but me and you were meant to be
You're a sexy guy, I'm a nice Girl
Let's turn this dance floor into our own little nasty world

Boys!
Sometimes a girl just needs one (I get nasty)
Boys!
To love her and to hold (I get nasty)
Boys!
And when a girl is with one (I get nasty)
Boys!
Then she's in control! (You like that? Here we go..)
Tonite

Let's FlyBoy have no
Fear (have no fear)
There's no time to lose
And next week,You may not see me here (uh-huh)
So boy just make your move (let me see what you can do)

Boys!
Sometimes a girl just needs one (I like thatBoys! (I like that)
To love her and to hold
Boys!
And when a girl is with one (it's gonna turn me on)
Boys!
Then she's in control!
Come with me
Let's fly
Into the Night
Oh boy, tonite is ours (it's just you and me baby)
When huggin me, make sure you hold me tight
Let's head for the stars GET NASTY!


(Do I need a BOY????)

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


I've examination tomorrow!!!!!! A bit stress.
But gotta be cool. Yeah cool....
I guess I'll be sitting in a room full of guys.
Yeah guys! 'Cause of my name.
*Sigh*
But my friends say it's good 'cause there're
guys.
What the fish...
*Sigh*
Yesterday Friz told me to be freind with him.
But you know me right? I can't do it.
Well.. I'm nobody.
It's just hard for me............
*Sob.. Sob... Crying*

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----

Then I Remember You {Pero Me Acuerdo
De Ti}

Now that my life is normal, ohh
That I have someone at home who dreams
of seeing me, ooh ooh
Now I can say that I'm finally on my feet
Now that, things are going well for me

Now that with time I managed to surpass,
That love that nearly killed me, no
Now, there's no more pain
Now finally, I'm myself again

(Chorus)
Then I remember you
ANd again I loose the calm
Then I remember you
And my soul is torn
Then I remember you
And my smile disappears
Then I remember you
And my worl becomes torn

Now that my future begins to shine,
Now that it has given back the security
to me
Now, there's no more pain
Now finally, I'm myself again.

(Repeat Chorus)


(Sing by Christina Aguilera. This song suites me well.
I've tried and I'm tired. But still I can't make it. If only I
never knew you *A*. Things will be sooo different. *A*
your name still stays here in my heart. It really hurts me
like crazy *A*. Why *A*? All those promises. They're poison.
I miss you *A*....)

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----

My Will

Quietly awakening...
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...

Unable to move forward across "just a little more" distance
The way I see before me is always blocked
Every time the days I want to see you but can't pile up,
My strong heartbeat turns into heartbreak.
If there is such a thing as "eternity,"
I want to believe, even if I have to take the long way.
Although I know that I've been hurt before because I'm clumsy
I won't stop; I won't give in to anyone.

I think of you
and that alone is enough
to make the tears start to flow now
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...

I've known all too well about pretending to be strong.
But since then, my doubts have vanished.

There's definitely things I want to show you
And so many words I want to hear
I want to see all sides of you, when you laugh and cry
So I'll stop waiting
and seize my "chance."

I think of you,
and I feel like that alone is enough
to make my heart grow stronger.
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...

I think of you and that alone is enough
to make the tears start to flow now
My distant voice can't reach you now, but so that someday
it definitely will...


(It's a Inuyasha's soundtrack. I love the song and I
love the lyrics. A..... If only you read this. But you won't.
Every single word is for you. And I mean it. 'cause it's
happening to me.)

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Yesterday I'd this stupid dream again.
It's about him. You know the one I thought...
well nevermind.
So this is how it goes.... I was sitting on a hill.
My back was resting at the three bark.
The sky was so beautiful. I don't have any
word to describe it. I was looking at a pink rose
in my hand. Suddenly he came and sit beside me.

He said, "So here we are. On top of a hill. Finally
together." He took my hand and kiss it.

Then somebody woke me up saying that it's time
for school. Haiz...
Then at school I remember that he once asked me
wether I've ever been to a higher place and just look
at the beautiful sky. I told him no and he said he too
haven't go to such place. Then he said,"maybe we can
go together. Someday."
Then I said,"yeah maybe."

Well it's not gonna HAPPEN. We WON'T meet each other.
*Smile sadly*
I do miss him you know. A..........
Won't speak of his name again.

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


I just got back from school. Well not really from school.
I went to the library just now with my sis. I don't wanna
go to my Geo 'cause I haven't do his homework.
So here I am *kissing the screen*. Hakz, that's gross *grin*.

*Pondering what to write today. Emmm... Hmmmm....*
*Got it!*

They were talking about Love just now at school. Including
the teachers.
So what is Love?
In the dictionary it says that Love is great fondness for
someone or warm interest.

*Hmmm.. thinking*

But why does it always bring pain instead of happiness?

*Stop typing. Then...*

I shouldn't write about this thing call Love.

*Smile to myself.*

I'm outta here.........

*Open the door and leave.*

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


I don't go to scholl again today. Well It's no use (lol)
I mean we won't be studying and there's only one
class which ends at 10.30am (rolling my eyes). I'm not
gonna waste my time doing nothing.
I need to MOVE my bones. You know how I can't sit still.
I'm drawing some anime character now.
It'll be ready soon and I'll post it here.
But wait........
I don't know how to put it here (damn!)
I tried to put up some pic here but it's not working (sigh).
Well I'm gonna try it again.
'Kay so I'm gonna continue colouring my art work. Adios! (Waves)

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


(Sang by Goo Goo Dolls. Every single word in the lyric,
tells something about me....)


Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yhea you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am