----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


He was not there.
*Crying*

Then we went home.
On the way home in the MRT,
I wrote two poems.
So here they are....

Gone

Saw you once
You were standing there alone.
You were sitting down alone.
As I wanted to take one last look
at you.
You were gone.
Twice,
I saw you again.
My heart beat so damn fast.
There you are.
So familiar.
But it was only for awhile.
Gone.
Again.



Where?

I am looking.
I am searching.
I am waiting.
But you are not here.
I am hoping.
I am praying.
I am wishing.
Sadly you are still not here.
So I stands up.
Last glance.
Right.
Left.
Nothing.
So my legs take me away from there.
With a memory of you inside me.
Reached home.
And went to sleep.


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----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


I AM SO HAPPY TODAY!!!!
I can't help it. I saw him again.
Yay!!!!!
*Jumping in front of the computer*
I thought that I would never see him
again.
It happened again..
I mean like last time.
See him wherever I go.
I'm not joking. My friend and I was talking
to our two teachers just now, then I saw him
looking at us.
But whenever I looked at him he'll quickly
turn away.
Funny!!!!
*Laughing*
But.. I don't know how to explain how I feel
right now.
I don't know what's happening to my heart.
Never felt this good and happy before.
I can't stop smilling.
I'm still smilling right now.
Tomorrow I'll be going to that place again.
Is he gonna be there???????
Hope so...

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


It was raining heavily just now.
And I don't feel like going to school
today. So I'll skip first lesson.
Well... I'm listening to songs right
now.

I'm thinking of something right now.

Sometimes it's funny how we met that
someone.
How we fall in love with them...
The first time something
felt so wrong and so good is
happening to the heart.
The way you speak the name
and taste it sweetly on your
tongue and lips.

And when everything's over,
how hard you'll try to forget him.
Keep on trying and trying...
Each single day.
Your friends are telling you
to forget him.
But it's not easy for you to
completely forget him.
'Cause deep down,
there's still this thing
lingering in your heart.
Instead of forgetting,
You keep on falling, deeper
and deeper.
Until you drown in it.....

Sad how it ends.............

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----

I'm sick.....
*Sigh*
Yeah sick...
Having fever and all that.
*Gasp*
Can't believe you'll fall for that.
*Evil Laugh*
Well actually I AM sick.
I AM!!!!
I got toothache. It's soooooooo
damn painful.
My wisdom tooth. That's what
they called it right?
*Sigh*
So eventhough my tooth is aching,
I can't sit still.
So I change the layout. Too lazy to
create my own.
So many stuff you need to put it.
It's driving me crazy.

P.S(Freeze) You what happened after you
wear heels. Got the answer?

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


My legs hurt like hell.....
What else can I say but the same old thing..
But guess what??
The continuation of the story will be posting
soon...

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Well it's 17th July already. Just got back
from my friend's house.
It's her birthday party.
It was his birthday yesterday.
Yeah on the 16th.
But I never send him any e-mail to
wish him Happy Birthday.
I just wished him that within my heart.
I can't e-mail him.
I just won't let myself do that.
Don't ask me why.
'Cause I myself don't know how to explain it.
It's better this way.
I guess....
Happy 23rd Birthday.

----<@My So-Called-Sickening Day@>----



I HATE TO BE IN THIS SICKENING
PROBLEM!!!!!!!!
I'm sooooooooooooooo SICK of it.
They told me that S came with his mother.
She made so much noise.
Know what......
*Screaming*
*Pulling my hair*
Mr A..... HE DON'T REMEBER WHETHER
S WAS IN THE CLASS WHEN HE REMINDED
US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO DAMN FRUSTATING.
SO HERE I AM THE ONLY POOR HELPLESS
HUMAN BEING ON THIS EARTH... WHO
REMEMBER IT.
I can't take this anymore.
I should've just ignore this and let them settle this
STUPID SICKENING THINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I CAN'T EVEN DO MY ARTS RIGHT NOW!!!!
Please ANYBODY....
*On my knees*
HELP THIS HELPLESS HUMAN BEING....

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


I'm soooooooooo piss off right now.
This S.. Because of S the whole school
is talking about it.
I mean he should clean up his mess after
he did it right?
But he didn't.
That Sickening Immature Baboon,
he's hiding behind his mother.
Asking her to stand up for him.
Shit... shit.... shit.....
I feel like kicking their asses.
If it doesn't involve me, I'll just shut
my mouth.
Shit I hate him....

Sorry... There're lots of unlady like words.
It's just that I'm sooooo mad right now

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Wrote this when they told me to
write about "Women." So...
here it is....


Women

Treated like a China doll
Held her up very tall
But once she fall
Shattered like a crystal ball

Hair soft like a silk
Into the ocean they spilt
Whenever she tilt
They will twirl

When love came by
Everything says goodbye
A heart so fragile
Flying high like a butterfly

Smilling very sweetly
She still feeling dreamy
Looking very happy
She dance gracefully

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


(I was listening to the radio when thing song
suddenly came to my mind. It's an old song,
sang by M2M. Yeah the two cute girl.
I'm listening to it right now. I like the lyrics.
It's sad and well..... You know the rest...)


The Day You Went Away

[VERSE 1]
Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

[PRE-CHORUS 1]
Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

[CHORUS]
Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

[VERSE 2]
I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

[PRE-CHORUS 2]
And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

[CHORUS]
The day you went away
The day you went away

[PRE-CHORUS 1]
[CHORUS]
[BRIDGE]
Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away
The day you went away
The day you went away

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Saw his new picture with his friends.
Well...well.... Whatever... I guess.. Yeah.
*Sigh*
What the hell am I talking about.
*Sigh*
Oh yeah... Yesterday went out with
Nal, Ain and Freeze. Then we ran into Nurul.
We'd a great time together.
Then..
*Eyes wide open*
Ain..
*Gulp*
She told us that her dorm was haunted. Well
still IS haunted.
That was pretty creepy and scary. Haiz.
Wonder how I'll survive that kind of thing.
By the way. I'm getting better at my drawing.
Soooooooooo loving it. BUT!
I still can't draw male figure.
*Sob*
*Sob*
Nevermind....Finally can draw what I really want.
*Shake it to the right*
*Shake it to the left*
*Evil laught*
Oh yeah. I'll be having my examination
tomorrow.
*Grin*
That's pretty scary too you know. Hakz.

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


*Jumping up and down*
*Hakz*
*Grinning*
I'm soooooooo happy. At last!!!
Got to know his age just now.
Finally!!!!!!!!
Same age as me!!! Whoaoowww!!
But he smoke... And I hate that.
I can smell it just now.
SO GROSS!!!
I just hate that smell.
Next time I won't let him share my
drink.
Can't you imagine it? Drinking the water
right after he drink it?
Eeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
Gross... Gross... Grossss!!!!!!!

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Yesterday was a very FUN day.
Yeah it is. We talked and joked
around like crazy. Our stall was
located near the game stall so
after we've done with our work,
we went to play some games.
*Hakz*
But today...
*Sigh*
We've to come back to school
although there's a holiday today.
*Screaming*
That's sooooooooo not fair.
'Cause I'm still feeling soooooooo
damn tired. Can barely hold my
hands up.
We did the "Doing it Hang it" stuff
so my hand's killing me right now.
And there's art class today. If it's
not for the art class, I won't be
going to school today.
*Yawn*
Shit it's rainning outside. I don't
wanna get wet out there!!!!
Arghhhh!!!!!!!

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


It's 6.24am right now.
Still feeling soooo damn tired.
Couldn't sleep last night.
And I've to go out in a moment.
*Yawn*
By the way I wrote a poem
during my geo class.
*Yawn*
I was sooo damn sleepy 'cause
the teacher.. well he actually
read every single words in the
book.
*Rolling my eyes*
As if I don't know how to read
them on my own. So here it is...


I wonder
And I ponder
And far yonder
I say No wonder
He left me under
The greatest pressure
To make me sadder
He said Whatever
To make me happier
I said Get lost forever!!!


Hakz... Can't believe I just
wrote that....