----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Wow.....
Didn't update for quite sometimes.
Been busy lately.
So here's the update...

Last Sunday,
me and my friends went to the Art House.
The perfomance was excellent.
But couldn't took my eyes of a guy.
He's soooo cute.
Lolz.
My friends said that, "Hey, you already fancy
someone else."
Then I told them. That's the kind of guy I
should fancy.
S.. What about him? He's the opposite of
everything I've on my list.
I really don't know how I can fancy him.
Lolz...
Why oh why I fancy the opposite?
Hopefully I won't meet him again. So I
can stop liking him.

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Been a bit busy lately.
Well last Saturday...
I thought my family didn't remember
my birthday.
*Crying*
My sis, my mom and my bro went out.
I didn't know where were they going.
Then a few hours later...
They came back with my father.
And guess what??
They bought a cake for me!!!!!!!!
How sweet of them.
Feel so happy.
And the cake is soooooooo nice.
My friends, they wish me Happy Birthday.
Some of them said that hopefully
all my wishes will come true.
If only that ONE wish can come true.
I'll be sooooooooo happy.
But... Right now... I don't wanna
live in a dream world.
I wanna live in reality.
I know that reality is painful.
But hey.....
It's better to feel the pain
and knowing that you're alive....
Rather then feeling numb............

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


I've been thinking a lot lately.
Yeah... sometimes I can really
think you know.
Before it's too late..........


I Think I Love You

I refuse to believe that it could be so
There is no way I'm in love with you
I lied to myself that it's just a petty jealousy
That I must be feeling lonely
But I cannot hid it anymore

I think I love you
But it must be so
'Cause I miss you
Without you
I cannot do anything
And you're always on my mind
So seeing this, it must be
I was unaware
But now I can see that
your presence delved deeply into my heart

We are not meant for each other
And being friends is the best thing for us
There isn't a single thing we have in common
So I claimed there's no way we can be lovers
But I don't wanna make excuse anymore

Why didn't I know it was you
Why couldn't I see it when it was right infront of me
It was beside me all along
But only now I can see love


(Song from fullhouse....)

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Feeling numb as I am writting this.
But it's ok.. I WANT to feel numb.
I am trying as hard as I can to stop
myself.
Twice was more then enough.
I don't want it to happen again.
I don't want have that feeling.
I have to make myself forget.
I have to...
I have to protect myself.
I can't let myself fall again.
I can't..
Don't what else I can do to
stop myself...
Any idea??????????

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Just got back from school.
Feel sooooooooo damn tired.
The Friendster is a okay
already...
Yay!!!
So damn happy...
Feel like jumping right now...
Hehehehehehe...
Just sooooooooooooooooooo
happy.....

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Fancy him
Fancy him not

What is this thing?
That makes me want to sing

Mooning
Swooning....


Still can't use the Friendster..
How sickening....
How frustating..
Oh yeah...
That's my latest poem by the
way...
Wrote that in the mrt yesterday.

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Forget him.....
Forget him not......

That's was all I can think of.
Trying to write and that was
all I can get outta my mind.
In the midst of this blurry thing...
I think it is a gossip...
They told me a guy fancy me.
I know which guy that is.....
But I don't fancy him...
I fancy someone else..
Someone I think... well nvm
'bout that.

Do you think I should just forget him?
He belongs to another.
Well they say that "Can't loose what you
never had"
Ain't that true???
Better stop myself from swooning over
him.....

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Haiz..........
*Sigh*
How come it is still down
for maintenace???????????
That's is soooooooooo
frustating.
*Sigh*
Wanna answer that question.
*Crying*
Wahhhhhhhhh
Can't stand this.....

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Yesterday I went to the BEACH!!!
I feel soooooooooooo damn refreshing.
The sky... How beautiful...
And the sea with ships...
How I wish I'd brought my
sketch book along....
Hiaz.......
It was even more beautiful at night.
The stars....
How I love it.... ~;o)

Hey you know what???
Something happened this past few
day......
Nvm...
Don't wanna tell you girls yet!!!!!!!!!
Muahahaha!!!!!
*Evil laugh*

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Yay!!!!!
Tomorrow is our National's Day!!!
Happy National's Day to all Singaporean
out there!!!!
Going to the beach tomorrow with
my family.
Yeah... gotta stroll along the beach.
I can think of nothing but how
beautiful the sea is.
I don't wanna think about it.
I wanna relax.
Enjoy myself.
Maybe I can start to a new story.
Yeah.....
Exam is coming very very soon.
Gotta study like crazy.
Wanna show them I'm not useless.
Gotta get a job then I can be on my own.
Yeah freedom....
But that's still a long long way to go.
But that's ok...
I don't mind...
Don't wanna do stupid things that can
get me into stupid troubles.
Gotta be myself no matter what they say.
Who cares what they're gonna say.
It's me who feel it.... It's me who's
suffering rite????????
So I'm gonna be myself.. Nobody else
but me...
Gotta run now..
Adios!!

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


I'm right now. Yeah sick again.
Dunno why... Down with flu.
*Achoooo!!*
Help.. help....
Lolz.....
Never wanna think about it
anymore.
I can face this.
Did it last time.
I'm sure that I can do it again.
Listening to this song right now.....


Sheila On 7
(Berhenti Berharap)

Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar di sini
Tersudut menanti mati

Aku tak percaya lagi
kan guna matahari
Yang dulu mampu terangi
Sudut gelap hati ini

Aku berhanti berharap
Dan menenggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta ku dapat

Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada snag hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan

Aku pulang
Tanpa dendam
Ku terima kekalahanku

Aku pulang
Tanpa dendam
Kusalutkan kemenangangmu

Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kaun tunjukkan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukkan aku derita
Kua beri aku bahagia
Kau beri aku derita

*Sob*
*Sob*

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


It's 7.30 am now.
I'm sick Having fever right now.
But I still have to go to school today.
There's two test.
I need to finish my art.
There'll be no time for me to eat my
lunch today.
But I don't care.
I just wanna finish my art.
I need to do it to get my mind
of the thing.............

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


How sad...........
Found out 'bout something just now.
Already have a girlfriend.
*Sob*
*Sob*

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


Finally!!!!!!!!
Got to know his name.
It sound sorta like a girl name.
But it's cute.
I'll not forget it again.
My friend Ayu said that she'll ask for me.
And she did.
Thanks to her.
Thanks Ayu!!!!!
He hehe...
I'm soooo happy...
*Dancing in front of the computer*
But I won't see him again.
How sad....
*Sobbing*
Gtg now gotta do my homework.
Hiaz......

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


I don't really know what's happening to me.
I mean... I don't usually looked at Malay guys
twice. But this time there's something pulling
me.
The first time I saw him was during the
open house. I got to see him only for a while.
Well for me it WAS for a while.
Then he was gone. I thought I'll never see
him again after that day.
'Cause I didn't know he's working under it.
I thought he was just visiting or something.
Then last Saturday, when we reached there..
We wanted to sit but didn't know if we could.
We wanted to asked someone but everybody
was so busy.
Then there's this guy who were standing in
front of us. When he turned around.....
It's him.
I was so suprised and let my friends talked to him.
They asked him "can we sit over there?"
and he sai, "yeah sure."
His voice...
*Grin*
*Melting*
Then again he don't really look like malay.
Today will be the last day for the exhibition.
My friends tell me to go there today.
But... No... I don't want to.
Maybe someday... somewhere... we'll meet
again like we did that Saturday.
I'm sure by now... most people know 'bout
it already.
Thanks to my teacher........
If that's gonna happen...
How can I go back to school.....
Argghhhhhh

----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----


I felt as if my face was on fire when
I blushed just now.
I really wanna know his name.
So we decided to ask our teacher.
But it came out in not the way I
planned it.
It was sooooooooooooo damn
embarrassing.
They were asking the teacher his name.
Then one of them said someone wants
to know his name.
I started to blushed like crazy 'cause they were
looking at me.
OF COURSE THE TEACHER KNOW IT'S ME!!
Then my friend who sat beside me said,
"Don't blush"
That only makde me blushed more.
Then I can't stand it 'cause the
teacher was laughing sooooo damn hard.
Never heard him laught that hard before.
Then I quickly covered my face with my paper.
*Crying*
Know what?!!!!!!
The teacher can't keep any secrets.
I know he will tell someone.
Shit.......
I don't want the whole shool to know 'bout it.