11:22 pm
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
Today.. It's only me and Teddy Dean.
I'm deeling so down today.
Lots of things need to be done.
Plus my own personal problem.
I feel like I just wanna stav my heart.
To stop it from feeling anything..
I wish I could be numb.. So I won't
be able to feel the pain...
12:18 am
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
Tonight is the most saddest night.
I've failed.
12:06 am
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
It'd been so long since I saw him.
I've been praying that I won't see him again.
I just wanna avoid him.
But I saw him just now.
I just wanna run away. But he saw me first.
There are so many things that I need to do.
Especially this whole week.
I don't want any distraction.
10:49 pm
Sunday, October 28, 2007
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
Tonight is a bit unusual.
I can feel you so close to me.
I don't know what it mean.
I gotta say wat's on my mind.
It's had to say
But I gotta do what's best for me
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall every time.
I'm gonna avoid you.
I'm giving up on you.
11:08 pm
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
<----My only friend when I need to talk to someone
late at night.
Say hi to my Teddy Dean...
I didn't sleep at all last night.. I juzt dozed off for
a while. Review week is only 4 weeks from now.
And I've tons of drawings to do.. And things to touched
up.
I'm like a walking zombie... I juzt don't care what's
happening around me.....
So people... so whatever you want and leave me out
of it.
7:34 pm
Saturday, October 20, 2007
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
Feeling soooooooooooooo stress up....
Got lots of things to be done.........
They just can't stop asking me to
go out with them.
This week is a very busy week for me.
So I don't need other distraction.
But I'm having one already....
I'm feeling so down and so fucking sad...
I really miss him!!!!!!
I didn't see him at all this week. Not even his shadow.
It's like as if he'd vanished into the thin air.
He's not even online......
I'm going crazy!!!!
I don't know what to do.
I'm fucking in love with him!!
Oh MY GOD!!
8:28 pm
Thursday, October 18, 2007
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
I feel very depressed right now...
Fucking depressed....
I don't see him this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I miss him like crazy!!!!!!!!!!!
Help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12:32 am
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
Went out with my old friends.Eventhough I looked happy...But I was not.... I'm feeling very sad....I just can't get the word and image out ofmy head.I really miss him...........I can't do this anymore. I wanna transfer my grade and move to another school.I wanna be far away from him.Maybe I should've go to Paris withmy aunt....He wouldn't even care if I'm gone...
12:38 am
Sunday, October 14, 2007
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
I am broken into PIECES....
It's 'Hari Raya' but i couldn't
take my mind off him....
It's all about him..
I tried to sleep and I dream of him...
And I'm listening to 'Tears don't fall'
from Bullet For My Valentine...
I've cried so much that I've no tears left..
I'm going away tomorrow...
Eventhough I've lots of homework
to be done.............
I 'm going crazy and I really need to
get out of this place..
I'm going to Malaysia tomorrow.... Hopefully I'm able to think of
something else when I'm there..
No one can help me.... No one... This time I've really crashed so
hard... I've fallen too hard...i'VE FALLEN TOO DEEP.. I couldn't get up.. ANYMORE.
9:55 pm
Thursday, October 11, 2007
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
My heart breaks... It finally does..I can't save it from breaking and bleeding.I found out that he already got a girlfriend.When I heard it.. It felt as if she shot a bulletthrough my heart.. It's so painful... I cried until I fell asleep..I couldn't control myself anymore...And today I've to put the disguise againwhen I was in front of him...I'm creating a happy look on the outside..But nobody knows that I'm breakingand bleeding inside.I more day til Hari Raya..It suppose to be the happiest day..But I don't think I can be happy this year.
11:47 pm
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
Finally!! After such a loooooong wait....I got my computer back.........................I've been doing a personal project. In my housethere are people who really likes to read my diary.That is like so private.... Hello!!!So I make a new diary.... Turn it into an art....That way.. only people with 'art brain' canunderstand it...Muahahahaha!!!!!! 2 days left...Going to Changi airport tomorrow....To draw of course.....My life now is all about art.I hardly think about him.I mean I still think of him every single day.But not every single second......Gotta go now...So sleepy...
