6:36 pm
Saturday, May 31, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
I dunnooooooooooooooooooooooI'm freaking out and I couldn't sleepfor the past few nights.Should I just tell him how I feel???But I seriously dunno what's hisfeeling towards me.I know I'm a coward.....................I can't tell him and I'm having somuch pain.How I wish to be numb so I can't feelanything. It's just.................It's not fair you know.....I always fall for the wrong guy.This is the 3rd time in a row....
12:22 pm
Friday, May 30, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
I think I'm having love infection. It's soooooooooo bad
that I'm having a plague. I need the cure real fast or
I've to stay indoor all the time.
Sounds crazy right????????????????????????
Well I'm a little bit crazy right now. I got 1 day off
so I've nothing much to do. Tomorrow back to work
again........... agrrrhhhh.
I might be going to the library later. Still haven't get my
pay yet........ Arghhhhhh. Which I really need it to
pay bill and buy new shoe.
And I seriously don't know how to handle that
dimwit... God!! She's driving me crazy. I think
She's having hearing problem. Seriously if I were
to become my bitchy self I'm gonna make her cry.
I've been clean up all my act and language.
Don't make me use all the hurtful words.......
6:42 pm
Thursday, May 29, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
I'm feeling soooooooooooooo down right now.Just finish eating me Ben & Jerry.. And havinga bad cough....The end of school holiday is still long long away..And I'm starting to feel freaking bored.......Yes I'm working.....But I feel soooooooooooooo numb...What should I do?????Cut myself to see if i'm really alive........
10:15 pm
Saturday, May 24, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
I'm sooooooooooooooooooo freaking tired.
Having a very busy day just now.
And I just got back home.............................
My legs are seriously killing me.
After work just now I went out with my
ex-schoolmate. Catching up with each other.
And today.... I seriously miss him.
Wonder what he's doing right now?????????
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...............
He's getting soooooooooooooooooooooooooo
far away from me each day.
Will I talk to him again or..........................
I don't wanna think about that.......
Gotta sleep now.... need to go to work tomorrow....
Working on Sunday really SUCKS!!
Hopefully I'll dream of him tonight..
6:35 pm
Saturday, May 17, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
I'm so damn tired... Yeah tired again.The PG(Playgroup, 3ys old) studentsare very very cute. And they can bevery funny.I was laughing like crazy just now.There's this one kid, after he finish eating his bread, he walked awayand then I asked him "Nak pegi mane tu??" (Where u wanna go?)Then his other friend that was siting beside me asked him,"Nak gi Johor ke?"(U wanna go to Johor is it?)I was like, What the ..........Then I said to him, "You wanna go johor is it?"He just grin at me. Then is the classroom, I askedthem to sit on the floor and he asked me to sit on thefloor too.I told him, "I don't want to"Then he said, "You degil" (You're stubborn) with that serious-cute faceI was laughing so hard.....Small kids then to drive you crazy.But they are cute.
10:21 pm
Friday, May 16, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
Very very very tireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed!
But I don't know why I'll always remember him
whenever I feel tired.
I know he made lots of mistake
And it's better for me to stay as
far away as I can from him.
But the more I tried to forget him
and stay away from him.....
The more I'll miss him and I really
wanna be with him.........
Is this the thing you call love???
Then why do I've to be hurt all
the time.
Seriously now I've only you(my blog)
to tell the story of my heart.
8:47 pm
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
I'm damn tired.... I''ll be looking like
like the picture by the end of this week.
Lots of work to be done.
And my partner.. Arghhh I don't know
how to describe her!
She doesn't even know what the hell is a
vangaurdsheet... Like shit!!!!!
She's such a dimwit!!! Sorry but I seriously
never meet such a dumb person.
Does she even go to school???????????????????????????????????????
Now I sound like one very mean girl.
I feel like all my bone are cracking.
It's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
tiring.
Holiday is comming soon.
But obviously there won't be any holiday for me.
Working alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
the way.
I really wish August will come realllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
soon.
Coz I'm not sure how long I can hang in there.
7:05 pm
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
It's more like I'm gonna fry my own brain
pretty soon.
I'm gonna start working tomorrow............
At the kindergarten(Yishun).
Yeah I know... Back to there......................
Well it's only until July or August right....
No harm. Besides... It's this rather then
stuck at home.
Well after I've graduated from the college
I can start working and look for my own place to stay.
By then I can be myself and no one can stop me right.
Gotta find the clothes.... well I can't wear jeans to work.
And hell I don't have any othe pants then jeans.
So I've to go for skirt then.
One thing.. skirt and kindergarten doesn't match.
It's rather troublesome with all the small kids that you
need to control.
So I'm patting my head to be a good girl and behave
tomorrow.
Coz from what I heard is I'm gonna have a $#@%!!! partner. So good luck to me.
Hopefully I'll survive and see you guys when school
re open in August................
7:05 pm
Monday, May 12, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
I haven't pay my bill so now I can't makephone calls and sms.People can msg me or call..Damn....I can't live without my handphone.It's like my life line.Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........................StresssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssI kinda agree with what Naz said in her blog.That's so true.
6:35 pm
Sunday, May 11, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
Cute right?? Lol....
Well I'm not too happy right now.
But instead I'm feeling so sad and
piss off.
Every time she's back... I'll be a totally
useless person all over again. I'm
just so sick that I wanted to vomit
blood in front of them.
Been talking to my teddy a lot lately
coz he's the only one I can talk to.
Yeah I'm crazy right???
Talking to a teddy bear that doesn't talk back.
But at least I can get those things outta my head.
Tomorrow... gonna get outta this house
and do job hunting.
I'm not gonna be stuck here in the house with
her for the rest of 3 months.
I'm sooooooooooooo stress that I ate lots of chocolate
today. And not to mention a whole tub of strawberry ice-cream.
1:21 pm
Saturday, May 10, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
Seriously I don't know why people can sometimes be soooooooofreaking immatures. Is it so hard to say that you're sorry whenyou did the wrong things.... Ahacksss....Well EGO is the word.But seriously that kind of person will never make the first moveeven though they are wrong. Well.... I really don't give a damn.Because I've other things to do rather then sit here contemplating.I've a life. There are more fun things to do out there so many new people to meet.. LolBy the way... mother's day is coming and I'm still thinking ofwhat to buy for my mother.... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmI better ask my sisters what they have in mind........
1:23 pm
Friday, May 09, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
First of all... what's up with the people aroundme that's telling me I'm becoming emo.Even him! Yeah him. I'm sooooooooooooooooohappy that I talked to him just now.It'd been a longggggggggggggggggggggggggggtime since we talk. Since he got that new jobhe's always so busy.He said,"emo sara"I was like, "I'm not emo.."So we start jocking around............ Ok no moredetails. I'm gonna have my hair cut today....It's damn long already and with the weatherthis hot.. I might as well cut them right.
6:18 pm
Thursday, May 08, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
I'm really worry for them and for myself....I really hope that all of us can graduatetogether...But......Well..I'm looking for a job right now.Something is not right in my brain.Feeling so empty inside.Maybe it's gonna be a very longholiday. And I won't see him againuntil August.. Sob.. sob.....I'm gonna try to go to my last workingplace. I know there's gonna be a lots of work.But I need to do lots of work in order notto think about him. Guess I'm back to square one again.
12:31 pm
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
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Staying at home and do nothing....IS eating my brain up!!!!I roll and roll and roll around my house!I think i've watched all the dvds...I've cleaned up my bedroom.I entertained myself by playing prankson my brother and sister..And now there's nothing else to do.....Work. Don't talk about that... The reasonI'm still at home because of the stupid rule.Arghhhh......
6:53 pm
Sunday, May 04, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
It's only been few day since the holiday started.
But I'm totally BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seriously I need to get out of here and do something
before I die of boredom.
I really wanna go to Paris. But the problem is....
1st: Money
2nd: If I've the money but then I don't wanna go
there alone.
3rd: My parents won't allow me to travel alone.
Arggghhhhhhhhhhh................................................
Now I'm stuck at home with nothing to do. Finding
a job is not as easy as it's seen. Plus with that attitude of my parents.
I don't understand why they have to control everything.......................
HELLO!!! I'm not a small kid anymore!!
Tomorrow is another bored day for me...........................................................
7:27 pm
Saturday, May 03, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
Yeah.. Yeah...
I.. I.. I.. I wanna be bad!!
Used to love this song. Everytime I listen to it, I just wanna get up and dance.
Have been searching for this song.
Sometimes when you're in love, things can happen.
And when someone make that bad looks so good.
You can't help it but be bad. I miss being bad.
Seriously wondering what he's been up too..hmm
But hey. Holiday is here!!!
I should be thinking of going out
there and have FUN!!! Yeah!!!!!
I wanna go to the beach and have
a very good time!!!!!
It's summer and it's HOT!
Plenty of hot guys out there ;o)
Hehehehe.. Juz kidding!!
9:58 pm
Friday, May 02, 2008
----<@My So-Called-LiFe@>----
It's OVER!!!I'm so glad that it's over. But I'm stillworry. I can only know the result on mid June.That's a loooooooooooooooooooooooongwait for me.I'm looking for a job right now....Really sick of my parents. They won't let me have the job if I can't wearthe sickening 'tudung'Like what the hell...Seriously I'm so sick of them controling my life.That's why I really can't wait to get out of here.I can't be like my 'perfect' sister.Why can't they just accept me as I am.Coz of them I can't even be with the one I love.Just because he's not Malay or muslim.....Everything I do or like, it's wrong things to them.Arghhhhh!!
Yeah.. Yeah...